I woke up.
I came to the conclusion that I’m no longer happy here. I used to use this place to write my thoughts, clear my head or just talk to my friends and have jokes that only we got.
About 4 months ago, that all changed. My friends seemed to fall off the face of the earth and stopped coming around. Suddenly, I was alone with my thoughts. People started feeding my fragile ego and I was enjoying it, but at the same time I knew it just wasn’t me. The one thing I can’t stand is fake people, and I started to turn into that sort of person. Of course I got the people that said “who cares what other people think? it’s your blog and you do as you want.” I can’t collect my thoughts for more than five minutes before there’s another arguement, or someone complaining because something happened that they were against. I know we live in an age where no one needs to worry about having their first amendment privileges revoked because they’re going to say what’s on their mind anyway. Maybe I’m the person that lives with the rose colored glasses permanently attached to my face, but I’m not a one who’s going to get in someone’s face because I don’t agree with what they have to say. It’s an opinion, and they have the right to one. I may not agree with it, but I’m going to take the less traveled road and keep my mouth shut.
Today, I really thought about deleting every social network that I have. If you can’t be my friend away from the computer, what’s the use of being friends? (unless you’re a long distance away from me.)
I’m fine with making the decision to get rid of this blog on the first of june. There’s a chance I could start over, but things are going to be different. The people you see now may not be the ones you see later, and that’s how I’m going about this. You’re all an important part of my life, but I’ve got a bit of soul searching to do.
